April 18th, 2005
So I figure it's about time we have a talk, LJ. It's been a couple days and a bit has happened.
Ryan and Carolyn are gonna end up living here for awhile as a trial period. The four of us get along great, so that's cool. I guess my only concern is that our apartment isn't that big...so 4 people living here hopefully won't last long. It either won't work out or it will and we'll all move into a bigger apartment. I just kinda figured it seemed like the best thing to do. The right thing to do. This way Tracy and I'll actually have friends around, it'll help everyone monetarily, and Ryan and Carolyn can be together. Everyone wins.
Tony led around 53 laps today, then was in 7th place when his car blew up with 39 laps to go. He got his first DNF of the season, 1st degree burns on his wrist and 2nd degree burns on the back of his thigh. Hopefully he'll be ok. This is the 2nd week in a row he hasn't finished well.
Ryan is spending the night tonight, which is cool. They're watching Tarzan right now. I'm not much into disney movies anymore, so I'm trying to maintain a balance of not being terribly bored and not being antisocial.
Called home and all is well. Kinda let my parents know how we're not doing well financially, but I didn't ask for anything. So I feel a bit better. Now I just wish I could get this job so I wouldn't hafta lie to them anymore about still working at BB.
Speakin of which, tomorrow Autumn Cashmere will receive my 2nd thank-you-for-interviewing-me letter. Both were written from a sincere thank you and professional standpoint, and not a ass kiss thing. I doubt many people send those anymore. I'm praying HARD that I get this job. They'll let me know sometime this week. The only reason I can think of that they wouldn't hire me is they want more experience...but that never seemed to be a thing they were strongly looking for. So either way, now is the time I REALLY need thoughts and prayers! If you can spare them, I can use them.
Another person that can probably use some prayers is Rachel. She has mine. She was crying on the phone last night and I felt so bad. I wanted to reach right through the phone and give her a big hug. It'll be ok one way or the other. I hate it when friends are upset and everything...especially when you can't physically be there for them. I hope she's having better days.
Well, that's about all I can think of for now. School's going ok, everything's pretty much fine besides the money thing and the job thing. The job thing will hopefully turn around if they decide to hire me this week. It would make my year if they would. I would about kill for them to hire me. I'd LOVE to not hafta work nights and weekends anymore. That'd be so awesome. And just having a job'd fix so many problems around here.
I really need to get back to the gym. So I think I'll go tomorrow night. I haven't been in almost a month, so I'm sure I'm back up to around 250...maybe more. It's so fucking disheartening not being able to lose weight. I work out hard, but then my fucked up knee gives me problems...so it kinda feels like I'm screwed no matter what I do. Oh well...I guess if I get this job I can wait a couple months and see a doctor and get my knee fixed. Another reason I need a job soon.
Well...I'll stop rambling. Please help with the thoughts and prayers if you can. Chances are VERY well that if you're reading this, I'm praying and thinking of you too, cuz I love all you crazies. Take care and everything. God loves all of you!
many prayers, crossed fingers and good luck wishes are sent your way!
thanks...it's very much appreciated